Feeling Blah and other Tuesday confessions

Today is my Monday.  All the other normal people start back to work on Mondays and have their weekends off.  No, not me.  I work Tuesday through Saturday and feel like I live in a closet.  It seems so mundane at times to work on Saturdays when everyone else is home having breakfast with thier family or watching cartoons with the kids, or going to the Farmers or Flea Market.  No not me, I sit at this desk waiting tentively for the phone to ring or some warm body to walk through the door.  Often times, I wait and wait, with no luck.  But, for every beginning this needs to happen, it will all change one day and I will wish it back to the way it was.  I guess that is what I am getting at.  When will I find happiness in just being?  When will my life be the way I think it should or could be?  When will I stop wanting what I do not have and live for the moment and in it?  Sometimes I think I know the answer, other times I want to scream and yell and kick my feet!  I guess what I am trying to say is, yeah, I know I need to trust in the Lord, and be patient and all that good stuff.  But sometimes my wiring does not allow it, so when am I ever gonna be happy??????  Maybe I need a wiring change?

We had a great July 4th party at my sister's house.  She worked so hard and made her house and yard simply beautiful.  Although it already was!  But she did so much to get ready to see family we had not seen in close to 14 years, it turned out amazing sister!  I was more than thrilled to spend time with our dad's family and have all my dad's sister's and brother in one place, along with some of their children.  All of our amazing friends and family brought covered dishes and deserts which were to die for!  The Buffalo chicken dip, the heavenly brownies, the potato salad, and the baked beans were among my favorites!  Thanks everyone for celebrating our independence together, I love you all so much more than you will ever know.  And thanks again sister for such a wonderful place to share all of this with!  Your hard work paid off with the lights over the pergola, the outside seating and dining areas that were just magnificent.  My baby sis, Miss Martha I call her!

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